So today I retired my trusty Marc by Marc Jacobs pink sunglasses that I find to be a part of my signature look. After superglueing them for the 4th time, I made a commitment to stay at the mall until I left with a new pair.
How I’m feeling today: A little nostalgic because I threw away my combat boots today. I actually threw them away…and then I retired my sunnies. Those were two things I bought at the very beginning of my college career, it seems incredibly right (?) that they would break at the very end of my college career. Nostalgia, feelings of sadness, etc.
What I’m doing today: I woke up later but not terribly late. 10AM. Made coffee and then most of the afternoon was kind of a blur. I guess most of my afternoon was at the mall and buying gas for my car. Bye bye Marc Jacobs, hello Ted Baker.
At one point I do remember calling my mom and telling her about my most current plans. Surprisingly, this phone call did not in tears or yelling. If you didn’t know, that’s pretty rare. I haven’t told her about the driving part, but baby steps. If anything, I think I’ll just one-way to San Diego, train to San Francisco, and one-way back…or to somewhere else. It all depends on how much money I have. After I bought new sunglasses, I got more liquid eyeliner (NYX brand) and this face-mask thing. I’m REALLY into face masks right now. Came home, walked to Abel’s and had a beer with a friend. Thennnn it was taco time. As my time is slowly ending in ATX (for now), I have to eat as many tacos as I can. I went to Tacorrido and spent $12. What a splurge! For real though. I don’t think I’ll do that for a while.
What I plan on doing tomorrow: I don’t have anything on the agenda, but things come up.
Where I want to go: I’m waiting to see if I’ll be going to a lakehouse. I want to go on a train…so I’m researching that right now. Does anyone have any tips on that?
What I’m reading: Information on trains, coding instructions. I didn’t get a lot of reading done today.
“Left foot, right foot. Breathe.” is a quote from Pat Summit a la told to me by Mary Alice. I really need to repeat that quote to myself because…
How I’m feeling today: Currently, overwhelmed. Call me a cry baby, but I cried again today. Just a little bit, but tears were had. There’s feelings of worry, and most of all uncertainty. It seems like these two feelings will be repeated for the next 50 days; I just can’t shake it.
What I’m doing today: I woke up late. 10:45 a.m., which is really late for me. I am usually up by 8-9 a.m. Maybe it was the sun exhaustion, the feelings, or both. When I was making coffee, I poured whole coffee beans into my coffee filter- so that should give you an idea of how my Monday began. I cleaned and tried to sort things out. My mom called me, worried about me. I’m worried about me, so I really don’t know what to tell her. I told her I wanted to travel to California for vacation. I also told her that I haven’t been applying to jobs…because I haven’t in the past couple of days. I’m 100% she had a minor panic attack. All of these I’s- it’s a sign of insecurity. Well, I’m insecure. After that I went to Barton Springs with Megan and tried to sort things out with the sun. I told myself that I wouldn’t go outside, but I just couldn’t help myself. Things were not sorted, but I had a good time hanging with my friend and people-watched. Now I’m here debriefing you guys and feeling this sinking feeling inside myself. What have I accomplished today? I swept the floor, I guess. Also, I wrote a lot of Thank You cards, I need to send those out soon. Look out everyone.
What I plan on doing tomorrow: Figuring out if I can print my insurance card so I can get my car inspected. Maybe e-mail some people, maybe apply to more jobs, maybe register a domain name. All these maybe’s- my book told me I needed to take action.
Where I want to go: Eat Vietnamese food because I’m feeling a little homesick (foodwise). I wish there was a place that would tell me what I should be doing with my life. Or, the beach (preferably on the West Coast).
What I’m reading: “Left foot. Right foot. Breathe.” And also: career descriptions.
The world is your oyster
Today is the first day of the rest of your life
This is the beginning of the next chapter
…and so it goes
As per inspired by Jaime (who will be documenting her 50 days of post-grad with video), I am committing myself to blogging everyday for 50 days post-graduation.
Today marks Day 1. I’m writing this today, how I’m feeling today, what I’m doing today, and what I plan on doing tomorrow. Isn’t that what a blog used to be for? (or live journal or xanga or whatever…now blogs are all editorial and planned) Some days might be boring, some days might be exciting.
Fact: I don’t think I’ve blogged everyday for longer than a week.
How I’m feeling today: Nervous, very emotional, anxious, happy, excited, and lucky.
What I’m doing today: I made coffee. I cleaned. I brushed my hair. I’m walking across a stage at 3:30pm and becoming an official Texas Ex. I’m going to eat dinner with my family and laugh with them. I might cry, who knows? I’m waiting for an e-mail from a recruiter. I’m going to celebrate because I’m graduating from the best university in the world! (Hook ’em!)
What I plan on doing tomorrow: Continuing the celebration, it’s the weekend! I’ll be making coffee or going somewhere to drink some. I’ll be eating and feeling content. In the presence of my friends and family, I will be grateful…and maybe I’ll read a little.
Where I want to go: Anywhere but here (like the Hilary Duff song) OR a body of water
What I’m reading: You Are A Badass by Jen Sincero
Day 1. Are you ready? I’m not.
As I sit at my desk, reading this school book that tells me how I should be looking for a job, it makes me think. Here are my thoughts:
Since the semester has started, there is a running joke that I have with one of my classmates. Almost every week (Wednesday’s usually), our professor takes the time to tell us how bleak our futures might be in the job search. I love our professor, she’s cool, and the advice coming from her is from experience yada yada yada. BUT I’M SCARED. How do I get a job? I haven’t even looked for a spring internship yet… I’m supposed to what and what about networking? Wait, we’re in college but we’re not going to learn about personal finance?
Here’s the joke: she and I always leave class with more anxiety than when we came in. It’s not much of a joke than it is a fact though. As I sit here reading this school book, I’m reading this particular chapter covering “Interviewing.” Do you know what I feel like the worst question is? Even far worse than the “weaknesses” question because it’s not even a question:
It’s a daunting statement, or is that just me? I don’t know who I am, that’s why I thought I would go to college (and my parents made me). And when I got to college, it made me even more confused and they don’t even want to know who you are, really (they = interviewer). I hear it’s something about being concise and relevant and there’s some sort of right answer to the question/statement. But what is it? I can’t ever get it right.
Tomorrow is Wednesday, maybe I will ask my professor about how I should answer. The anxiety is already setting in.