Arguably, I spent my time wisely today. To me, spending time wisely means being with people you love, and forgetting your watch (Yes, I wear a watch and I use it. I’ve got a mad watch tan to prove it too).
How I’m feeling today: Tired, I’ve been out today for the most part. Being out, even if you’re inside a vicinity is tiring.
What I did today:
- Coffee routine (I’m one of those people).
- Have you ever watched YouTube on a TV screen? It’s kind of a game-changer. Who/What do I watch on YouTube? Mostly It’sGrace, Hannah Hart, and the Shaytards. Get educated.
- Finally got to pick up my Jimothy! He’s nice and smooth now. Love your car, take care of it- your wallet will thank you later. …But then there are just those times when your car is do for X, Y, Z and you just have to throw down some money.
- Hurried over to La Madeleine’s during lunch hour and had a 2-3 hour lunch with one of my favorites, E.K. Sun. College graduated and we still talked about our high school friends. I told Eric that I would document our whole conversation on here so that I could remember it when he asked me to write his memoir. I think I’ll remember it. There isn’t much to say…let me rephrase, there isn’t much I’m allowed to say. He has strict book rules. Here’s what I can say: we talked about plans, jobs, interviews, management, schools, and case studies. Doesn’t that sound riveting? There may have been a conversation about social interactions and drinking. I can’t disclose that.
- Went over to the nursing home where my grandma is staying and read her The Fault In Our Stars. She doesn’t understand english, but I thought just hearing a voice would help. Ran into my cousin at the nursing home so we talked while we watch our sweet grandmother. Today she actually spoke. It was only two words, BUT that’s more than I’ve gotten from her in the last 4 days. Apparently she’s a vampire- she’ll sleep all day and talk and tell stories all night.
It’s been tiring. A lot of talking was done today.
What will I do tomorrow: No idea.
Where am I going: Probably to the dining room to eat dinner.
What I’m reading: The Fault In Our Stars for a second time because it’s coming out this Friday and I like crying.
- It took longer than I thought to fix my poor Jimothy (my car). He’s getting old. Somehow all of the things that need to get taken care of, need to get taken care of- my wallet hurts.
- It took longer than I thought for my mom to come back to work. This resulted in me working a full day. I know this sounds bratty. Okay, this is very bratty. I’m going to make this excuse: I was not ready to work a full day (mentally or physically). My attitude wasn’t in the right place, but now that I know I probably have to work more and help more, I’ll be able to deal.
- It might take longer than I think for all of my parent’s customers to realize that I graduated college. No, I’m not still in high school. Also no, I’m not in college. No, I don’t have a plan. No, just because I’m taking a break, this doesn’t mean I’ve given up. Small talk is sometimes the worst. I need to somehow turn this around, I’m going to be doing a lot of small talk.
- I hope it doesn’t take long for me to get myself over to the theatre and cry my eyes out. The Fault In Our Stars is going to be out this Friday and um, I need to see it asap.
Not sure if this ‘theme’ worked out, but after working a full day today with other external stress factors- I’m wiped out. I also ran, so that contributes to exhaustion. Please excuse this crap post, I’ll be more refreshed tomorrow.
Also, please pray for my grandma. I would write about her today but re: I’m wiped out.
(Disclaimer: I have not seen the movie The Curious Case of Benjamin Button since it came out and I have not read the short story, I may be wrong and I may give out spoilers)
She’s 90+, y’all.
This is my grandma and she is a powerhouse, don’t let her 4′ 10” stature fool you.
And I love her a lot. She took care of me from birth to toddlerhood and always believed in me. Though there is a bit of a language and topic barrier, I always feel her love when I’m with her.
She has turned the corner of 90 and she reminds me of the movie The Curious Case of Benjamin Button. A lot of older people do actually. Sliding into dementia, she has this childlike look on her face. More often than not, we guide her, remind her that she needs to take her meds, and then do it all over again the next day.
Remind. While my grandma remembers names to the faces, there are times when she asks me to remind her that I’m Thu and to confirm that I’m her daughter’s daughter. In the movie Benjamin Button, Benjamin ages younger but gets older in the soul. Toward the end, he starts to forget everything from his earlier life. Reminding is something I need when I forget to do my homework, something I need to remember a date or birthday- something I never thought I would need when thinking of memories. And yes, she does have memories, she remembers some odds and ends but never fully, her attention span is limited so a story is often cut short before she has another question for me.
I look at my grandma and I’ve been wondering at those exact moments, “What is she thinking right now?” What does she think when mom and I were helping her get a bank account? What about the DMV? What does she see when she looks at the TV? Is it different every time she wakes up? Is it different every other day? It’s both scary and intriguing.