Day 4: Left foot, right foot. Breathe.

“Left foot, right foot. Breathe.” is a quote from Pat Summit a la told to me by Mary Alice. I really need to repeat that quote to myself because…

How I’m feeling today: Currently, overwhelmed. Call me a cry baby, but I cried again today. Just a little bit, but tears were had. There’s feelings of worry, and most of all uncertainty. It seems like these two feelings will be repeated for the next 50 days; I just can’t shake it. 
What I’m doing today: I woke up late. 10:45 a.m., which is really late for me. I am usually up by 8-9 a.m. Maybe it was the sun exhaustion, the feelings, or both. When I was making coffee, I poured whole coffee beans into my coffee filter- so that should give you an idea of how my Monday began. I cleaned and tried to sort things out. My mom called me, worried about me. I’m worried about me, so I really don’t know what to tell her. I told her I wanted to travel to California for vacation. I also told her that I haven’t been applying to jobs…because I haven’t in the past couple of days. I’m 100% she had a minor panic attack. All of these I’s- it’s a sign of insecurity. Well, I’m insecure. After that I went to Barton Springs with Megan and tried to sort things out with the sun. I told myself that I wouldn’t go outside, but I just couldn’t help myself. Things were not sorted, but I had a good time hanging with my friend and people-watched. Now I’m here debriefing you guys and feeling this sinking feeling inside myself. What have I accomplished today? I swept the floor, I guess. Also, I wrote a lot of Thank You cards, I need to send those out soon. Look out everyone. 
What I plan on doing tomorrow: Figuring out if I can print my insurance card so I can get my car inspected. Maybe e-mail some people, maybe apply to more jobs, maybe register a domain name. All these maybe’s- my book told me I needed to take action. 
Where I want to go: Eat Vietnamese food because I’m feeling a little homesick (foodwise). I wish there was a place that would tell me what I should be doing with my life. Or, the beach (preferably on the West Coast). 
What I’m reading: “Left foot. Right foot. Breathe.” And also: career descriptions. 

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